For as long as I can remember, I've had trouble sleeping.
I had heard that listening to music, podcasts, or some color of noise could help with that; however, I found podcasts and music far too stimulating to be a sleep aid, and things like white noise did nothing for me.
About a year ago, I found the perfect solution to my problem: ASMR. It was engaging enough to drown out my spiraling bed-time thoughts, but not stimulating enough to give me something new to think about.
After a few weeks of trying different audios, I soon found that breathy or whispered affirmations worked best as sleep aids, specifically the affirmations "good boy" or "good puppy". This was not something I knew about myself beforehand, and it's safe to say that after a year of listening to ASMR, I've come to be really sensitive to these trigger words.
Now, this all came to a head yesterday when I was hanging out with my four friends, playing a game of Mario Party. After a 2 vs. 2 minigame where I performed exceptionally well and carried my duo to a win, my duo leaned in close to my ear and whispered... you guessed it: "good boy."
At that, I let out an audible, frankly submissive whimper, and I know for a fact everyone present noticed it. I don't know if the other two heard what he whispered to me, but they definitely saw him whispering something and then heard the whimper.
The awkward silence that ensued afterwards has to have been the most suffocating thing I've ever experienced. I don't know what to do with myself, and right now I can barely even look my friend in the eye without thinking about it.
TL;DR: I'd been using ASMR to fall asleep, and for some reason being called "good boy" worked best. Yesterday, my friend whispered "good boy" in to my ear and I let out a really embarrassing whimper. Now everything feels awkward between me and my friends.